Last day of nite shift

Yippie...
Finally my nite shift come to the end ald
so happy
finally i dun need become panda
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hehe

Recently working is so tension
bt quite relax while working nite shift
enjoy it .....

Tomorrow planning go movie with Cheryl
so expecting
he always gv me a lot of excuse
i think enuff for me ald
too much of space i gv him until i lost him

today received a msg from a guy
suddenly he asked me is that i din like him anymore
OMG
i juz knew him for few days
i tot we are friends
but i dunno he think too much and so far ald
so i dunno what should i said.....

Lost confidence

The longer i like him,
the more i feel not confidence.
The main reason is because our religious.
Because of him,
i am wiling to change myself
set the limit to all the guys
all only because of him

He knew everything i did
He juz pretend he dunno
I totally dunno what is in his mind
Is that my qualification is cant match with him?

At the same time,
few guys are approaching me
even gt some i ald reject them
bt the guy still said that he like me
and he keep on disturb me
i asked from him
but he just pretend dunno anything
that time i m really feel afraid

Now gt a tour guide is trying to approach me
everyday called and msg me
he is treat me very well

I rely want your answer.....
YES or NO ....

I like you

Long time din post in my blog ald
so lazy and busy too
life is always uncertainty
the things that u wwant,
u cant gt it easily......

Like he n me
playing hide and seek or playing kite
i also dunno
bt at least now i knew he gt gv me response
asked him help me buy the lollipop,
he will do so
summore whn other staff asked him why he din go movie with me
he juz told them i m busy so plan changed
he din denied
tis is the part tat made me feel happy

Suffer

Few months b4,
our distance become far and far
i dunno why
he never respond anything

He doesnt like me bt why always make like he like me?
is me too stupid to like him
or because othersssssssssss
I rely like u
i dunno why u never gv me any answer
make me so sad everyday

Tired

So tired recently
At the same time is stress too
A lot of things need to do
Exam coming soon
Assignment due date is 2 weeks later
Hotel still busy busy and busy
I wn a long holiday lar

Luckily he is always confort me
haha
he is more tired thn me
always work until 11 something thn still need to send his colleague to jetty
no time to accompany me ald lar
so so so geram
bt i still like him
haha

First day of CNY

Today is the first day of CNY
so so so excited and i need to wake up early
i started think about my future which ald planned
i m so struggle to do tat
dunno why
juz suddenly gt the feeling
T.T

beside tat,
my bf is another problem
i knew a lot of guys approached to me
especially is malays
bt after he hurt me
i dun think i cn hv other ald
i dunno is tat because he still in my heart
or i ald lost my confidence
everyday meet him in hotel is a sufferring thing for me
i dun wn to face him anymore
i will escape n i will cry
no matter hw long the incidents happended

my mom frend introduced a guy to me
he is quite frendly n my family quite liked him
erm
i also hw to say lar
juz feel tat i dun lik a marriage arrange by family
make me feel stress only
haiz

The end of the year

I din update my blog for almost 1 month
maybe is too busy or lazy
bt wt i knew is
the days passed lik fly
sometimes we wn to hold the moments tat we r realy happy n enjoy
bt we r nt able to do tat

i worked in hotel line for 5 months ++
i started feel bored
wit my relationship and also the life
need to handle everything
bt when no one will appreciate our hard work
when we made some mistakes,
they will maximise the mistake n start scolding
juz lik wat other said
i m too soft n easily to let others to bully me
haha

got one guy said tat my face looked complicated
i dunno why suddenly he will said lik tat
i started think tat am i very selfish
i kept on think negatively about hw he ended up our relationship
bt i never think tat
he treat me as a stranger is because he wn to forget me n also everything
maybe tat is also a way to protect his heart
i only think about myself
i too selfish

they invite me to the beverage gathering which still on planning
i knew the 2 department might be combine n did the gathering together
i ald asked someone to accompany me
because i dun wn to take risk which he might in the gathering also
i still will feel hurt when i face to him
haiz
i m nt enough courage to builf my confident

tonite had supper wit Zul, Chian Chung n Wooi Han at Kayu
tot he wont came because he said his member is in his house
bt finally he came
his colleagues started talked about him n me ald
bt we din care
because we knew we r frends
4 of us talked a lot during the supper time
sharing our experience
hehe
:)