Today is the first day of CNY
so so so excited and i need to wake up early
i started think about my future which ald planned
i m so struggle to do tat
dunno why
juz suddenly gt the feeling
T.T
beside tat,
my bf is another problem
i knew a lot of guys approached to me
especially is malays
bt after he hurt me
i dun think i cn hv other ald
i dunno is tat because he still in my heart
or i ald lost my confidence
everyday meet him in hotel is a sufferring thing for me
i dun wn to face him anymore
i will escape n i will cry
no matter hw long the incidents happended
my mom frend introduced a guy to me
he is quite frendly n my family quite liked him
erm
i also hw to say lar
juz feel tat i dun lik a marriage arrange by family
make me feel stress only
haiz
