Thursday, December 30, 2010

The end of the year

I din update my blog for almost 1 month
maybe is too busy or lazy
bt wt i knew is
the days passed lik fly
sometimes we wn to hold the moments tat we r realy happy n enjoy
bt we r nt able to do tat

i worked in hotel line for 5 months ++
i started feel bored
wit my relationship and also the life
need to handle everything
bt when no one will appreciate our hard work
when we made some mistakes,
they will maximise the mistake n start scolding
juz lik wat other said
i m too soft n easily to let others to bully me
haha

got one guy said tat my face looked complicated
i dunno why suddenly he will said lik tat
i started think tat am i very selfish
i kept on think negatively about hw he ended up our relationship
bt i never think tat
he treat me as a stranger is because he wn to forget me n also everything
maybe tat is also a way to protect his heart
i only think about myself
i too selfish

they invite me to the beverage gathering which still on planning
i knew the 2 department might be combine n did the gathering together
i ald asked someone to accompany me
because i dun wn to take risk which he might in the gathering also
i still will feel hurt when i face to him
haiz
i m nt enough courage to builf my confident

tonite had supper wit Zul, Chian Chung n Wooi Han at Kayu
tot he wont came because he said his member is in his house
bt finally he came
his colleagues started talked about him n me ald
bt we din care
because we knew we r frends
4 of us talked a lot during the supper time
sharing our experience
hehe
:)

Monday, December 6, 2010

Finally

Finally
I give up
i trying to save our relationship for 1 month
bt u seems tat nothing reaction
i dun wn to torture myself ald lar
after be with u,
i ignore all the guys
become patient
bt at the end
i only gt the hurts from u
T.T
enough for everything

Honestly, u r nt the only one approaches to me
i still hv better choices
lik other ppl said,
trying to go out with other guys
forget u n let myself freedom
thx for the memory

Friday, November 26, 2010

Thinking

Today mood not bad
haha
mood changed after dinner
because someone asked me abot him
hu.hu.hu.
T.T
thn only i noticed tat i din see him for few days ald
miss him lar
i never expect i will become serious wit him
at the beginning,
i juz think tat is a game
he is the first guy i m shopping wit at QB
even though i knew sure will met some of my frends there
hehe
>.<
bt since he ald make the decision,
i juz cn wishes him all the best in his career and happy forever.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Sleepless nite

Recently cannot slp early
wonder is tat because of stress
juz nw only finished read my frend's blog
very nice template
sweet and warm
bt the background music made me remember all the things he made for me

These few days i starting make judgement about myself
wat did all guys around me trying to get from me?
Money, challenge, fun or only sex?

Maybe others ppl only think tat i m a manja gurl n very close with everyone
ok, tat one i admit
i manja bt i doesnt mean tat i dun hv brain
sometimes i juz dun wn to care too much
a lot of managerial person very sayang me
i cn play with them or manja wit them
bt i also knew the limit
they helped me a lot when i need it n i m really very appreciate
they will support me whn i need tat
thx for everyone who helped me

i think i lost my weight again
now only 41 kg
hope cn increase some weight b4 CNY
hehe

he n me
nw ald be stranger
tat is an end tat i never expect
everyone asked me to gv him some times
bt i think he should gv me the explaination
he is a guy
pls be more responsible
also gt ppl asked me juz gv up n accept another guy
i dunno wat should i do ald.

quite bz wit my work tis month
someone wishes to be the 'senior' in front of me n another trainee
juz go ahead lar
bt when gt problem,
still is me need to handled for her
summore she kept on ordered me to work
=='
some ald knew i dun lik the gang
bt who cares
even they knew,
lik tat only
haha

i try nt to be so emotional n sensitive
bt i m too easy to drop my tears lar
especially is talking about him wit other ppl
sad
T.T

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Sleppy day

Since tat i ald promise will gv him some times to think about the problem,
i wont disturb him
bt at tis period
i starting lost my confidence

juz nw read my frend's blog
so fast she n her bf ald 1 yr
congratulations
so sweet enough
haha
keep it up
blessing will always send to u all

Thursday, October 28, 2010

rebounding

rebounded my hair today
nt bad
new image
wan gv surprise to everyone

he gv me the hope
he made me felt tat we hv chance be together
so i din control my feeling n like him so much
he broke everything
bt our frendship still there
juz felt hurt

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Bad mood day

Yesterday happended an incident
a trainee is cried n she told everyone i bullied her
actually i din do anything also
thn supervisor n everyone is came n scolded me
tat time i really felt innocent
i really is speechless

Today
a "keh po chi" kept on told everyone tat i bullied the trainee
all came to scolded me once n once
really is enuf ald
especially is the management training ppl
i knew the trainee is same college wit him
bt really need to scolded until lik tat har?
he said the trainee is very sensitive
thn how about me?
only trainee is more valuable in tat hotel
tat is wat i learnt today n sure i will remember forever
nt my fault bt everyone blamed me
tat is a gud thing

TO ALL FRONT OFFICE STAFF,

IF STILL GT ANY MISTAKE DID BT NO ONE WILLING TO ADMIT,
THN BLAME ON ME LAR
ALL IS MY FAULT
JUZ DO IT

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Shopping

After bz working
finally i went to shopping wit him
haha
same guy???
no
is different one
he treated me very well
no matter how much i manja he also will care
bt he bullied me all the time
>.<
wat relationship btw he n me?
friend lol
he really is a gud guy
bt also is a very busy guy
hehe

Thursday, September 9, 2010

心神不定的夜晚

看到他的fb,
突然有种想哭的感觉
我好想他
我们已经在一起将近两个月了
虽然他和我天各一方
但是我从来就不曾埋怨过什么
因为我知道我真的爱他。

虽然偶尔会觉得很没有安全感,
但是我会很坦白的告诉他
他总是说我想太多了
我真的不想失去他
现在我的心里真的很不安。
宝贝,
我好爱你。
不管身边有多少诱惑,
我仍然是属于你

最近的我好有口福哦
一直都会有人自动送给我吃
月饼,
水果,
糕点,
比萨,
还有我最爱吃的巧克力。
真的很谢谢那些人
可是
我还是没有肥到。
就像老吗和老妹常说的
浪费米饭
Haiz

Friday, September 3, 2010

Nite shift again

last week only i finished my nite shift
bt yesterday i worked at nite again
for only 1 nite
because Mas is offday
=='
why dun let him work for 1 week thn only gv him the off day
the thing is fixed bt the human brain is live
why she cant be change???
after she is here
really made everyone upsad
why she cant change her stail bt wn everyone follow her stail?

now
some of my frends start persuade me change hotel
i knew they cn help me to the hotel i wn
bt my mom din allow
she said i only work for half yr
dun change lar

working nite shift wit Abg Hadi is very fun
he will guide me n helped me
he is really a gud guy
fun working nite wit Kak Ziela, Fahmi, Kak Ju n kitchen staff
everyone treated me very well
thx a lot
in this hotel
i really very close wit everyone
at the same time
i m very appreciate the help fr everyone

after nite shift
i m insomia again
haiz
so
i finished my drama
" Temptation of wife"
a very long bt interesting korean movie
at the end i m still will cry
too touching

mooncake festival is coming soon
so mean tat my lantern cn "born" ald
haha
i juz lik to light up all my latern n hang at my fence at nite
so nice
enjoy the time
my favourite jelly mooncake is finished
so i hv to buy more
love to eat so much
different wit the traditional mooncake
hehe

Monday, August 30, 2010

............

Actually in my mind juz now gt a lot of things wn to write tonite
suddenly forgot everything
haiz

ok
recently
my mood is very2 down
dun ask me why
i also dunno
i pretend myself is very happy everyday
bt when i m alone
my mood is down
how many ppl noticed i m pretending?
i also dunno
i only know one thing
i m getting to collapse soon

i miss summone very much
wn to see him everyday
hope he will by my side all the times

always heard ppl said i m getting slimmer
now only i knew why
because i kept on sick
few days per week
no wonder i will become slimmer
sad
T.T

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Candle light dinner

Hehe
last nite dinner at The View wit him
nice dinner
candle light dinner
with 5 star service
so grand

4 yrs ++ din meet
we talked a lot tat nite
about past, now and future
like to talked with him
n thx for his dinner
he understand wat i wn

Thz for everyone who helped me in the dinner
Mr Ong, all The View staffs (especially Fauzi) and others
really very thank u
hehe
the food is really nice
although it is expensive
bt it worth
:)

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Sicking day

sad lar
sick after raining whole day
terrible flu

really suffering today at work
i m too sensitive with the weather change lar
haiz

tired lar
sick n still need to work
bt luckily i still cn msg him
thn sure is manja2 wit him lar
haha
love him so much
a lot of ppl wn me to betray him when i posted something at my FB
haha
even is his old frend also told me the same thing
funny
Loyal or betray?
i dunno
wakaka

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

raining day

Start the raining season ald
so sad
i m driving ler
always rain
haiz

recently i had walked to car park alone
feeling scared lol
especially at nite
bt today is lucky
met another staff at car park near my car
tot he will left first
bt he waited me out first
hu hu

miss him so much
only him in my heart now
sometimes my heart is shaking
lik sometimes my frends asked
will u think tat ur relationship very hard?
sure
bt it sweet
when the time u heard his voice or u gt his pic
everything is worth
the hardship will become sweet
because i hv him
sometimes i chatted wit Carinn(trainee)about him
she juz stopped me n asked me plz dun show off my love
because i seems too happy
n my smile is sweet enough
haha
Caarinn,
dun jealous lol

as everyone knew,
msg in ur phone is very private
bt in my phone
only the person i care enough
thn only i will kept the msg

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

New Car

Haha
i change car ald
fr big car to smaller car
my little kancil
wakaka
everyone said more suit me
because my size is so small
=.=
ok lol
i din tell anyone about this matter

today after my work
went to KFC as supper wit Jun, Wendy and Carinn
nt bad
first time we went out together

today is Chinese Valentine's day
i m celebrate it wit my work
where is my babe har???
i also duno

so sleepy nw
gud nite lol
Muackssss

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Workshop

Today i attended a grooming workshop
quite useful for me
hehe
nt bad

noon shift for tis week
really is boring
until my leg bitten by all the stupid mosquito
gerammmmmmmmmmm
made my leg so itchy n reddish
:(

the most stupid thing happend is my finger is hurt by my name tag when i try to pin my name tag on my uniform
really stupid
=.=

recently i really forgot my result
totally forgot that i m not take my result yet.
haiz

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

choices

why the cafeteria cannot hv more choices?
most of the time is curry or spicy food only
haiz
now i m start fewer again ald lol
and always gastric recently
so sad

after my 2 days nite shift,
i m bac to noon shift again
so bored

ramahdan month is coming now
so mean tat i hv to work more hardworking ald lol
gud thing
so tat i can learnt more in my counter
bt really feel tired lar
maybe tis is call "working life"
wakaka

Friday, August 6, 2010

Nite shift

Erm
tonite is my first nite shift
expecting
so i hv go to slp now
if nt tonite sure will fall asleep
haha

met some problem at work.
bt try to overcome my fear n solve all the problems
and a lot of ppl is helping me
from different department
thx for all
love u all so much

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

sensitive

tonite i m really very sensitive
especially is after gt scolded fr manager
although tat was nt my mistake
bt he still scolded me n not gv me the chance to defend myself
mood really is bad
when Abg Karim came n concern me
i m nearly cry at reception
in fact my tears are dropped ald
after tat i m juz crazy with my work
i m too sensitive tonite
i also dunno why
luckily after dinner
my mood is ok ald
can joke with others
bt still bz with phone n gsts

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Hell day

recently i m really bz lik hell at work
why so many problems come to me one?
dear my gsts,
receptions gt 3 persons,
why most come to me?
i m really exhausted
especially is gst fr china, taiwan

babe is sick today
so he called me b4 he bac home
dunno why
sometimes i my mind will appear a statement fr another person
:U really believe him har? Maybe he lie to u
i still remember my reply is juz smile to him
because i also dunno
maybe he is really lie to me
maybe today he is nt sick bt go out with other gurl
i dunno
i really dunno
tats why i choose to escape fr tis ques
maybe tat was nt the way i should do
bt i m really dun wan to face tis problem nw
i only knew tonite i m nt concentrate at my work at all
even GOVIN (senior staff) also can realised tat n told me
i made the mistakes tat i wont did it b4
really is terrible lar me for tonite

Thursday, July 29, 2010

BZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzz

tonite is really bz
even 4 of us also felt tired
started fr 3pm
i m bz until my dinner
only the 45 mins of break time can let me relax
after that
i m became busier

check in the gst
provided the information to gst through phone
few things still need me to follow up tommorow
Carinn, a trainee also said to me
"Tonite u really bz with phone and gst"
and they really helped me a lot tonite
thx

i m still coughing lik hell
bt during the briefing today
boss said cannot take MC or leave
because tis week is really very bz
i wan offday
i really cough terrible lar
even i make up
bt still gt ppl can read through my face
thx for the concern, XXX

I M REALLY NT OK

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Bad mood

Today gt terrible flu and cough
i tot my coughing ald recover
bt it came bac
and i kept on sneezing today
haha

i ald decide will see doctor tomorow morning
how come i ald sick for 1 week bt still cannot recover????????????
thx for everyone concern about me today

juzz now i spent around 40 mins to read all my previous post at here
i realised tat i m changing
from gud to bad
and also fr bad to gud
its tat a gud thing?
i duno

from the time i m a trainee at EQ
until now ald work there
is really different
stress made me felt upsad
bt also let me knew tat i muz try to take the challenge
tat is the way i m getting improvement

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Out of expectation

Recently my working performance is out of my expectation
too bad
need to improve
and be more confidence

scandal seems lik become a trend at hotel line
why?
i also dunno
the time when i facing with the reality world
the time i understand nt everyone will be ur frends
normally i prefer choose to believe everyone is gud
bt sometimes the result is nt wat i wan
why they wan to hide their motive and pretend nothing
why dun they juz straight forward to do tat
i m still is a baby at tis society
i m only see a part of the world only
many things need me to discover myself
same with my future
if i m nt dare to take the challenge,
then how can i knew my choice is correct?
no right or wrong in the world
tat is juz depend how u see the world
bt plz remember
plz dun pollute ur pure heart and mind thinking
try to be nice with everyone
they will gv more than that
Give and Take is a priciple of life
no bad if u go to realised it
dun be shellfish
because will get nothing at all

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Sick Sick Sick

Help argh
i m sick again
the reason is
Eat curry to much
everyday at cafeteria only serve spicy food
TT
:'(
my frends who knew me well sure knew tat i m quite sensitive with spicy foods
now i m sick ald
kept on fewer n sore throat
whn only i can recover?

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

first day work

today first day work
sleepy
partner with 2 senior staff and a duty manager
my duty manager straight put me in the rooster
ok lol
i skip the training
haha

i did check in and check out
i m still remmber every process
so gud
thx for the guidance of Din n Nik

Monday, July 19, 2010

Orientation

first day work
erm
quite happy met all old frends
haha
some of them ald knew i m coming bac
some are nt
bt most of them felt surprise i will bac EQ
miss they all
cute cute Abg Junid, cubby abg basri & abg aus
haha
love them so much
Today Abg Aus, Abg Basri & other supervisors kept on wan me go to HK
i knew they were joke
bt at least i knew
they really very gud to me

abg Iqbal helped me find my uniforms which r suit to me
my size is quite difficult to find uniform
haiz
thn started my orientation with other staffs
until now
i still can feel that they all very sayang me
most of them
such as chef khor
he juz like my another father
same with chef yeoh

whole day orientation
made me more understand EQ well
hehe
at least i m very sure i will nt lost
lik today gt one HK supervisor asked me when i had a house tour with everyone
" why u still need to hv this since u had been here before?"
i said: i dunno
haha
>.<

after finished my orientation
went to front desk wan to said gudbye to Abg Hadi n Govin
who knew they were bz doing check in
suddenly,
Abg Hadi lend me the Cc n ask me to swipe
so nice
Abg Hadi still confidence with me
then i started help to do check in whn the gsts getting more at front desk
Abg karim seems lik very shocked whn he saw me helped at front desk
haha
I used govin id to check in the gst
thn suddenly he teased me:
" Did u still remember how to do or not?"
My replied is : Gv me some time
i m still remember how to do everything
ok?

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Happy birthday to me

Yeah !!!
I m 20 years old ald
hehe

thx for all the wishes
fb, sms and also calls
love them so much

friendship forever
i had a very touching birthday surprise last year
although u all cannot accompany me tis year
i still happy
because i knew
u all by my side when i need u
ur encourages, supports and also help
never forget in my life

" Airplanes" is our memories
" There You'll Be" is for our lecturers
very meaningful songs

i m very appreaciate every moments spent with u all
a lot of nickname u gave
funny funny one
haha
very lovely

anyway
we all partners all the times
hope can see u all soon

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Holiday starts

Ya
I m graduated
2 yrs and 4 months
nt easily to go through
bt i did it
i m very happy to say
I m graduate now

everyday i stay at home n doing nothing
haha
bt my mom always make noise
and also my youngest sister
they starting kacau me
and always wan me find a bf
==
i think they are going to crazy ald
always wan me show them my bf
i m still single n available
now is nt the time for me
maybe find a fixed bf and start become stable
bt tat all depend on the faith
i m still young ( i think)
i m still looking for my soulmate.

will start work next week
hope can hv a gud n sweet working life there.

Friday, July 2, 2010

RIP, Bong

Gt the bad news from facebook
so sad
although we are not meet for few yrs
bt we are frends
i shocked when i knew u r passed away
we knew each other since i m changed school
tat time we are only 14 yrs old

maybe we are not the close frends
but i still remember very well
whn we at 4SC2
we played together
study together
i really dunno we cannot meet again

Rest in Peace
dun worry us
we will live happily
and u are always in our memory
Bong Zheng Yi
we are friends and partner forever

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Finished

finally today i finised my marketing presentation
thx to all which helped me a lot
my group members, Mr Gunalan, Mr Kevin Cheah and others
very appreciate everything tat God give me

societal marketing concept
really very interesting
bt actually how many hotels are really apply tat concept
in penang,
only few hotels
actually tat is nt an easy thing to apply
for an instance
An Age of Environmental Problem
most ppl will think about go green projects n 3R activities
is tat recycle can only use at outside the kitchen
how about inside the kitchen
kitchen always throw the wastage more than other department
after collect the wastage, they will juz throw into the big tong sampah
why not they offer an opportunity to the pig growers n used the wastage to feed the pigs?
how many hotels are doing tat?
i dun think so

how many hotels are really sincere in doing charity
in their minds
the time u open the door to do business
u muz earn the revenue
is tat same to do charity
when u do the charity
u muz also get bac the equivalent benefits
why cannot do everything without discriminations, money concept
whn anything relates with money,
it will become very complicated
try throw the businessman's surface
juz become a normal person
used ur sincere heart to concern others
that is not the difficult things to do
it juz need some times and passion
i din say earning money is a wrong waay
bt at least earn money with the sincere heart
did u every notice people beside u?
did u noticed some of them is really need help?
but some are only pretending n doing the wrong things without u know?

world inflation is coming soon to Malaysia
how many citizens will not complaint or blame the government when everything price is increasing
bt their salary are remain the same?
hospitality industry is different with other industries
we are selling our service and also smile
bt others are selling their products
where is ur conscience when u earned money with some illegal strategies?
at tat time, will u think twice before you do it?
as an example,
if u are going to stay in a hotel
bt the hoteliers all gv face to u
seems lik u owe them a lot of money
will u going to stay there?

sometimes the foreigners will gt discrimination from local
they felt tat they are the king of the land
n the foreigners were come to our country n work
they deserve to gt such insults
did they every think
when u work at other countries such as Taiwan, Singapore n others
u also are foreigner only
would u expect to get such treatment as how u treat the foreigners in ur hotel?
everyone deserve a new chance
everyone will make mistakes
even is GOD
i think sometimes he also will regret wat he did before
no one is perfect
try to accept the strengths of others and improve the weaknesses

Monday, June 21, 2010

Happy Father's Day

Yesterday was Father's Day
I celebrated with whole family
I bac Butterworth with my family
so nice can meet my aunties
we chit chat whole afternoon
i told them my plan
they are very support me to chase my dream
so nice they all

My grandpa is so healthy today
because of his cancer,
he always feel dizzy and need lay on bed only
he is suffering whn we are enjoying
bt it nt happend yesterday
he is very expecting his " Durian"
he smile very happily n can walked here walked there
actually we very worried
his condition is changeable
hard to predict wat will happend for the next second
for me
i wishes my granparents or even my great grandmother can attend my wedding
hehe
^^

i m going to graduate soon
the feeling is so complicated

Thursday, June 17, 2010

at the end

Finally
tis is my 100th post at blogger
erm

first
happy duan wu jie
enjoy ur bak zhang
haha

today is the first presentation for my last semester
we are the first team
kept on asked question by lecturer
luckily i knew how to handle him
+_+
very tired because always sleep late
rushing report
bt we enjoy it

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Full Stop

its the time for me to put a full stop of my nonsense life
i knew i m changing
from the time i m in industrial training
i dunno such changes are gud or bad
until now
i m decide to let everything bac to its track



for me
i juz wan to get bac to my original life
i dun wan to make all my relationship so complicated
so
tat is the time to say gudbye to my certain past
i will never forget u all
my dear, darling, him n also M
is u all taught me wat is life
and no life are smooth thn i think

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Happy birthday to him

Today is his birthday
hehe
so fast
he is 22 yrs old ald
He is elder me 2 yrs old

I never mention his name in my blog
but tis time
i m going to say that:

Happy birthday, Zhe Xi
Wishes all your dreams will come true.


He is a very passion and polite.
He very gentleman in doing everything.
I knew him since i m 9 yrs old.
Hehe

Monday, June 7, 2010

Family day

Today spent time with my family at my grandmother house
all of my aunties were bac with brought their children along
so sad
whn saw my cousins
they all grow up ald
i knew i m getting older
haiz
luckily
my lovely little cousin still like to stick on me
she always took my phone to play games
and kept on wan me to hug her

My grandfather seems getting older
his cancer is getting worst
too bad
i hope he can alive until i get marry
i knew tis is his dream
to attend one of us wedding
as the eldest grandchild
sorry i cant do tat
i m not get marry so early
his temper became hotter
kept on scolded people
Hope u can recover soon
my dear grandpa

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Tired day

Today
walked under the rain
so nice

tomorow is my uncle's wedding
according to traditional
they will prepare a dinner before married
i went there with my family
met a lot of relatives
and their topic still is my marriage status.

a lot of small cousins there,
ran here, ran there
so noisy bt felt very warm
when i saw them
i realised that i really grow up ald
bt sometimes
i m nt mature at all
haha

i m going to rush my assignments and also my final exam
this is the last chance

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Management

If management of a hotel is sucks
wat will happend?

whn the hotel gt problems,
who should be blamed?
owner? GM? Head of department? or other personnels
wont it be too late to blame?

whn the management gt problem
every department will gt influence
no matter which department,
dificulities are appearing to be solve

staffs start gt different unions
coorporation lost among the department
quality of service sure will dropped like nobody business
at tat time
argueing always happend
staffs start not believe their team members

the management is really very important
no matter which company or hotel u are
we cannot let the management down

Sweet Memories

Since 2010
i tried a lot of new things
the happiest one is i knew him

he is nothing special
bt i m attracted by him
haha
dunno why
until now
i still will be hurted by any of his words, his attitude n also his sms
i ald try to let me free fr thinking about him
i really did it

lik wat lynn told me b4
he is nt deserved wat i did for him
i can find another guy which better thn him
honestly
i really gt such gud guys around me
haha

some guys around me are trying their best to let me smile
they will never let my tears drop
they will dote on me very well
whn i m merajuk,
they will confort me
haha

bt i really hv the sweet moments with my dear.
thz u very much

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Bz week

Ris week very very buzy with the assignments
i m really going to crazy
so stress
n me start sick
sore throat n fewer


i knew some of them will read my blog
so
i update now
hehe
my sensitive nose really made me suffer all the times
did anyone gt ways to cure it?
i really cannot tahan ald
extremely sensitive with the dust, seafoods n also weather changed
bt i only need to suffer for the next 5 weeks
after tat
i m graduate
so excited


i will take care myself no matter where i am.
i will nt let ppl who really concern me one worry about me
so
take care
everyone

Friday, May 21, 2010

Finally

Yea
finally midterm finished
today is the last paper
haha
i knew how to do every questions
maybe some points are nt correct
bt at least
i know how to do totally

few days dint update my blog ald
no times
now
i m doing assignments with my frends
so bz
3 assignments need to settle in 3 weeks
n need to do power point presentation
hu. hu.

its time to 'on diet'
because of the stress
i think i will lost my weight in this month
I dun wan!!
i dun wan!!
why i hard to gain my weight but easily to lost my weight????
i ald underweight
if lost weight again
i think i will crazy

Monday, May 17, 2010

Buzy weekend

Weekend
Wat will ppl did at weekend?
study? Shopping? Dating??
me?
erm
i m working
ya
i m worked part time
as a senior waitress in outside catering

so hardworking har?
erm
no lol
because i dun hv money ald
:'(
i cannot always gt the money from my parents
so i hv to work

until now
i still confuse
should i specialise in f&b or front office
i still consider every factors

i prefer front office
because i m nt confident i can do well in f&b
f&b is his area
is him guided me steps by steps
is he let me knew everything about f&b
i really appreciate him
he is my new yr surprise for tis yr
haha
i nvr think tat will happend
at least we happy before
so i m nt regret

Friday, May 14, 2010

Honest ? Lie?

How many ppl can swear they are honest and never said lie?
Is that ppl who telling lies are all bad guys?
Is that ppl who telling the truths are very gud ppl?
All are depend of how we think.

Lies can have 2 types
one is intentionally
and one is white's lie
white lie mean tat the lie which will nt harmful to anyone
i prefer tat

i admit i will tell lies sometimes
bt i m nt really mean to hurt anyone
i tell lie because i m really dunno how to tell the truth
bt some ppl think tat i m liers
juz because i hide the truth

sometimes i will think that
did i do the wrong thing
i wan to tell honestly
bt not everyone can take the truth
because truth is always hurt

so
did i m a gud gurl or a bad gurl?

Thursday, May 13, 2010

1st paper

finally
1st paper finished
terrible for me
lost a lot of marks
really depressed
:'(

2 more paper for tommorow
i really wan to scream and wan to cry
i m very sleepy now
because i only slpt 2 hrs today
why
so many subjects

i cant take coffee anymore
it brought a lot of side effect to me
such as hand shake, heartbeat increased until cannot control
@@

i hope the person i lik can by my side now
so that i can manja with him
haha
i m crazy ald

as i remember
he is going to bac penang
hope can meet with him
he is very special for me

juz now received a letter from world vision
after opended it,
only i knew
tat is the gurl i sponsored at Affrica
she sent me about the details n express her appreciation to me
so happy
tis is my first time did so meaningful things without acknowledged my parents
i knew they sure will stop me
not because they dun lik
is because my family is not so rich
i sponsor the kids by using my pocket money

early in the morning

wah
now ald is 4am
bt i m still in front of laptop
and accompany by my books
why so late still dun wan to slp?
erm
because i gt exam today
i m doing revision

juz now watch the Thomas Cup
Malaysia vs Denmark
so excited
because Malaysia won
yahoo!!!
especially is my Diamond couples
they performed very well
love them so much
and i will support them all the times

so
now i m going to rest for 2 hrs
thn go to college
attend the normal class thn is my exam
so nervous now
hope can get the best result
:)

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Understand

How many ppl are really understand me?
even my parents also nt really

the food i hate are cheese, milk and soya bean.
how many of my frends knew i dun eat beef n mutton?
how many ppl knew my favourite food?

how many of them knew my chinese name?
i m very curious
for me
understand doesnt mean anything
maybe we knew each other for a long time
so,
u understand me
i m nt easily to trust a person deeply
juz lik i wont tell anyone about my private things

Monday, May 10, 2010

Becoming panda

ya
i m becoming panda now
my mid term test is on tis thurs
erm
did i start do revision?
nt really
because now i m still on9
haha

i ald restrict my calls
only few ppl can reach me by phone now
dun wan tell here
hehe
can try urself

so fast
2nd anniversary is coming soon
i m waiting for it
^^
love u so much
muacksss

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Wedding dinner

haha
attended a wedding dinner tonite
bt not to enjoy
but is working
ya
i started my part time job after my training finish
nt bad
at least i still remember everything

i din tell anyone fr hotel i gt side jobs
why?
no reason
juz dun tell them only

the bridegroom tonite very handsome
he is very polite n his smile is so sweet
hehe
and the most thing i like is he really very love his wife.
i also wan to find someone lik tat
wakaka

marketing? Purchasing? accounting?
which one should i study first?
i dunno
i only knew i cannot go butterworth celebrate mother's day with my family
so sad
:(
reason is i cant finished my revision
so
better dun go

muz stay at home alone.
dunno wat can i eat.

Friday, May 7, 2010

Start Study

Next thurs is my first paper for midterm
so nervous now??
impossible for me to nervous
haha
why??
because the exam is nt come yet
still gt time

i kept on asked myself
is tat the time to let me end the relationship
i dunno
hopefully dun need


i miss u
u should knew i m talking about u

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Knowledge

Today E&O hotel came to gv us a talk about their hotel.
So elegant is the hotel
Now only i knew it has 125 yrs history
i love the design there
so beautiful

i dunno which path will i choose after i graduate
maybe tat hotel is one of my choices also

Juz lik wat they said today
'Hotel industry is nt for the stupid or ppl who are nt educated,
it is full with opportunities n depend how u choose for ur future'

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

sore throat

weather now are very terrible
easy to make ppl sick
so
i m so unfortunately
i also sick
>.<

today meeting with my group members
kept on talked cxck only
haha
they talked so rude there
haiz
they always did tat

sore throat start today morning
i din tell anyone
including my darling
haha

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

hopefully

recently i cant slp well at nite
2 weeks ald
so suffer for me
hard to concentrate
haiz

today drank some alchoholic drink
nt drunk
bt juz wan to let my mind can relax
n hopefully cn hv a sweet dream tonite
^^

Monday, May 3, 2010

Trust???

in our world
wat is trust?
why we cannot trust someone easily?
lik me
always scolded by my friends
because i easily cheated by other persons
i m too easily believe ppl
haha
tat is my weakness

for me
why we hv to suspect other ppl
maybe tat is my fault
too easily believe ppl
how many ppl we can really trust?
i dunno
bt i knew
i hate ppl dun believe me
whn the time they dun put trust on me
is the time we end
juz lik most guys
like to call me dear, darling, sweetheart, babe,etc
bt i still trusst them
haha
although i knew no serious among us
tat is the rules
i m very clear
all the honeyard words are juz the tricks used by guys

Complicated

Recently i really felt complicated
my mood, my thoughts or my mind

many of my frends knew wat am i doing now
they gt advise me
helped me a lot
i knew wat am i doing now
because of tat
i start think complicated

suppose me is a very gud gurl
haha
at every aspect
nobody will think tat i m such gurl
haiz

i m not confidence to maintain a long relationship
maybe is because i m ald no confidence to love a guy
i will stop everything
let all bac to its original track
hope i really can do tat
:)

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Happy day

today so eppy
my lovely daughter, tZE ERN came to visit me n her frends
long times din see her ald
miss her so much
i knew she very suffered at there
bt plz wait for 5 yrs
after graduate,
u r free
she really is my lovely daughter
she will discuss everything with me on9

another thing is i gt my laptop

Windows 7 with other extra features
so nice
haha
thx so much

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Laptop

I miss my laptop
faster come bac to me
i really miss u

no matter how i try
they still unfair to me
no point to me continue to do all

very moondy
dunno wat should i do now
scared, disapointed

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Moody

my laptop sent to change the operating system ald
need few days
so meant tat i need to use my pc to on9
bt cannot so often
haiz

i miss all of u

Thursday, April 22, 2010

he leave

he left ald
he is so nice to us
bt nw he leave

he going bac kl tomorrow
hope he can everyhthing ok
will mis him
haha

finally i sent my report today
relief ald
bt still gt few assignments on hand
still need work hard

everything will be ok,
rite??

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

finally

i m not write my blog for 2 days
i gt on9 everyday
bt i m too bz

doing my report
these 2 days i only slept for 3 hours per day
so sleepy
headache
became panda ald
and also coughing
haiz
terrible life

i wan to eat ice-cream
i wan mc-flurry also
my frends all stopped me to eat tat all
because i m coughing
:'(
i really wan to eat ler

these 2 days i m rushing my report until midnite
bt i still on facebook chatting
thx for the person who chat with me whn he / she working
not bad
at least i knew i m not alone

visited the doctor after class today
he said i m only coughing n getting to fewer
sick again

gt my midterm test timetable today
so fast
2 more weeks
hate it
tats mean i left EQ ald gt 4 weeks
i miss u all
everytime chatted with them
i really wan to meet them
they all so nice
hope can see u all soon

fxxk ppl

wat the fxxk ppl
thought he was the best
thought he can be leader for everyone

he is juz a damm shit person
if cant take the pressure
dun bark like a crazy dog

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Terrible Coughing

my cough became serious after one nite
how come?
i ald try to avoid drink ice

in the evening
really very suffer
until i felt my asthma is coming soon
hate such feeling

told my mom
after we analysed
we think tat maybe is the 'herbal tea' she cooked yesterday
because its characteristics too cold
nt suitable me to drink
haiz
terrible ler
if i knew early
thn i wont drank

she also said wan to cook my chinese medicine for me tommorow
oh my god
i drank it 2 days ago
thn need to drank again
dun wan lar

Thursday, April 15, 2010

All about u, my dear

the day we start
very memorable
1st of Jan 2010
u r my first bf for tis yr

he treated me very well
will called me everyday
sms with me
whn i m manja
he is beside me
did many things
sometimes i will gv him surprises
same to him
his smile was so sweet

i admitted i lied to him
i cheated him
whn he found out
we broke up
because of another guy
haiz

thn we juz liked normal frend
chatted at fb
bt he juz kept on mentioned the guy
so hurt
until now i still liked him
muahhh
like u so much

so
to all my frends
be honest to everyone
now i ald changed
but he dint believe
because i lied to him b4
so sad

Accident

met accident today
i drove whn i bac
thn gt a lorry in front of me
suddenly a gurl came fr beside the road with her bicycle
then the gurl n the lorry were accident collision n the gurl felt down
so i emergency break
n no hit the gurl also.
luckily

but whn i bac home,
wat i gt was scolded
i ald shocked enough
n still need scolded by my family
haiz
wat the family member

i wan to tell him tis matter
but i dunno how to tell him
=='
everytime is i called him
he nvr take initiative
n kept on broke his promise
really miss him

hot weather

hot weather really cause a lot of trouble
not enough sleeping
made me felt headache every morning
n need to drank a cup of coffee to let me concentrate

i became easily mad and angry
too emotional
like recently i kept on dreaming in class
my frend told me
' U r not suitable to become so emotional'
erm
did i??
maybe sometimes
haha

accounting made everyone confusing n stressing
include me
haiz
need to settle it ASAP

3 more months
my big day
hehe
so fast
i m going to be 20 yrs old
waiting the day

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Enough!! ENOUGH!!

i really enough with everything
i dun wan to care ald
wat u all wan to say
wat u all wan to do

GO AHEAD


everyday need a cup of coffee to concentrate
but i ald reached the limit for tis week
so
i m not going to take any caffein drinks
haha
for my own healthy

yeah
i m going to change my operating system
Vista to Window 7
haha
by next week
so happy
and expecting

Monday, April 12, 2010

i m really very blur

i m very blur now
not enough slp
emotional
impatient
easily mad
tension

so i drank a cup of white coffee today
whn i m gastric
haha
i think i really blur
until i cant think wat should i did but wat shouldnt i do
how can i drank coffee whn i m gastric
result is::::
my stomach pain until ...
speechless

i going to rush my industrial report by tis 2 weeks
now i ald felt very stress
wan to relieve my stress
i m gonna crazy now

Sunday, April 11, 2010

One day trip to Ipoh

yesterday
12 of us went to Lost World Tambun
very fun
and enjoyable
tis is the first time we went for trip together

we were very adventurous
only hv a map
thn we went
haha
we lost at there
asked the local residence
so arrived there safely

Sorry to let everyone misunderstanding

i knew many staff at EQ ald misunderstanding my relationship with the bell captain
he n i are only frend
the most normal frend
plz dun made any story

i m single now
so i juz wan to focus at my study only
dun misunderstanding our relationship
i dunno how they know
or maybe they read my blog
he n i are really nothing

sorry to let everyone misunderstood
especially is EQ staff

Friday, April 9, 2010

Emotinal gurl

i m really very emotional
for today
whole day

went out dinner with frends
chit chat at the mamak stall after we ate
the feeling is gud
after that go to my frend's new house

we are sharing our experiences at training
also talked about our future
let the memory left in the heart

really not feeling well tonite
i miss u,
my dear

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Weather

My mood is Juz like today weather. Sometimes happy sometimes very down. Some of my friends asked me why i look so sad today. I answered them, 'no la' because yesterday not enough slept so my mood quick changeable. Start stay with my friend. So comfortable but also very boring and sleepy. I miss u so much.

Religious, races and cultures

in Malaysia
different of races and religious
most popular is malay, chinese n indian

recently i kept on scolded by my mom
she tried to persuade me to continue any relationship with malay guys
for me,
its ok
juz frend
or maybe will not only be frend
:)
because of tis thing,
i really gt some pressure from my family

in the traditional chinese family
i understandwat did my mother thinking
i din say anything to make commitment with her or argue with her

for me
in tis world got many kinds of ppl
if tat is prejudice so stop me to hv frends
i cant accept

maybe someone will think tat i m too wilful
but tat is true
we can choose to make frend with anyone
i dun wan to care what is my frends' races, religious
for the most important
my husband sure will not be a malay guy
because of the religious problem

Waiting to play

today gt one convention assignment
so mean tat i hv 3 assignments, 1 asssessment and 1 industrial report on hand.
the report due date is next thurs
so i need to rush ald.

finally
i went to bank to settle the payment ald
haha
my child sponsorship program
i m very glad i can do tat
without my family know
because they sure will not support me
i dun wan to argue or fight with them
so i hide the truth
hope will hv frends can join the child sponsorship program
only RM50 per month
u can help a child in his/her country
it is very meaningful

i knew wat is the side effect of coffee to me
but i still drank
took the risk
haha

will not on9 for few days because i m not at home
so
i will miss everyone
hehe

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Extremely bad mood

yesterday can't slept well
so today morning my mood is extremely bad

after bac to college
i realised that i had to face all the problems
which i dun think i can handle very well
made me suffer
and i also kept on sick
@@


the kind of feeling is coming bac
sad, stress, scared
it make me uncomfortable
so i drove to college today
did the same things
over the speed limit until 100km/h
to relieve my stress

i becoming impatient, rushing, easy to mad
i hate myself become like this
but i really cannot control my mood
sometimes whn i m felt tension,
i will play the game
but the effect is not so gud

Monday, April 5, 2010

Sick and sleepy

today flu, cough n dizzy
really not feeling well
especially my nose
i press until it very red
very funny
everytime i m sick
really think that need to find a person to take care me
a person which will really care about me
its time for me ~~

but too weak to care other thing
after lunch,
felt better but still coughing
whn i bac fr college
i did a dangerous thing
i drove car with sick
haha
and speeding until 90km/h
wah
so dangerous
but luckily i m still knew wat i did
haha

i miss everyone in EQ

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Like or love

Is that like and love are two different thing
Yes, it is.
for me
i can like a lot of ppl
but i only love one person

one guy
he knew i din make any commitment
and i also tell him clearly
we can play like the adult
but dun be serious
i think he too serious in our relationship ald
suddenly said he love me
n kept on asking me the same que
n my ans still is: I like you.

not i dun wan to be serious
i really serious in once time
but badly hurt
after that
i knew
cannot serious again in such game
but at least i m sincere to treat everyone

Alone in home

Today my

parents, my sis n brother went to grandparent house
i m lazy
so i stayed at home
very boring
no mood to study because the weather is too hot

i m sick again
@@
terible flu and coughing
hopefully tommorow can recover
dun wan show my sick face in front of my frends.
at now i really hope someone can take care me
as wat he said
i have to find someone to take care me
i m too weak
really appreciate his concern
although ald broke up
still concern me

as usual
my lunch is instant mee
it is same every weekend
because my mom wont cook at weekend

haiz
doing nothing
miss u

Saturday, April 3, 2010

moody

today quite moody
sent a stupid message to darling at fb
i m too unreasonable
haha

doing report,do revision, prepare for midterm
so many things need to do
cannot behave so lazy ald
need add oil

today breakfast n lunch = a can of cream soup
the most easy way
and also save money

i wan gain my weight
at least 3kg lar
i ate so many everyday
like yesterday nite
after i ate dinner,
in 1 hour later, i ate 5 pieces of apom balik
but still cannot feel fullness
haiz

Lazy weekend

today no class
hide in home
doing nothing

whn i m alone
i will start think a lot of nonsense
tats why they always said i like to think too much
haha

reality is very cruel world
if i cannot suit myself in tis world
i will be terminate
so i had to work hard
so tat i will not lose
i hate tis term "lose"
really hate it
i wan to be a successful person but not a failure

Haha
my face is getting better thn before
so happy
finally
i can see the result after i spent a lot of money on my face

i miss everyone in EQ
especially few ppl
tat is really unforgetable and amazing experience in EQ

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Stomache

dunno why
i m having stomache early in the morning
thought will be ok after have breakfast
who know,
still pain
i think maybe is because yesterday nite whn i m gastric but i m not eat medicine
suffer

today the class is so tough
i m not so understand wat the lecturer taught
before i went for training
i m one of the best students in class
but now
i think i m very lost in my study
but i will try my best to settle everything
because i knew a lot ppl is by my side

i m still coughing
hard to recover
juz can avoid to let it become more serious
i hate the weather now
sometimes sunshine
sometimes rain
stupid weather
hate u

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Emo again

today i m very emotional
very down mood
quiet in the class
disscuss the trip to Lost World next weekend


my frends always told me
beware with other ppl especially guys
because i m too simple-minded(sometimes)
and easily trust a stranger
sometimes we cannot judge a book by cover

tommorow gt accounting and purchasing class
at least not so boring
wishes i can gt the gud result in my midterm
i really felt very stress and want to escape from here
everytime i face stress,
i will use the technique to relieve my stress
dunno tis time will it work or not?
i m not try yet
but soon also

wishes everyone all the best
take care

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Sicking day

woke up around 9.30
sicking
skipped my breakfast because my class is on 11 am
so i only had a milo as breakfast

gastric again
ate the pills all the times
lazy day for me to study

start doing report
lazy to think
haiz

hope i can recover soon
because i really gt many things to do
cannot waste my time anymore

Pressure !! Presure !! Pressure!!
i really hate pressure
one of reason will also cause me sick
haha

raining day

finally reached there
saw some of EQ staff there
mizz them so much
i saw En Rahman, Bar manager, Yuslan, Mas, Farhana, Izad...

went there actually is saja
not really wan to watch the competition
so i went Bersiar-siar with my cousemates and took some pics

maybe is too excited
my voice is going to lose
because i m drinked iced n terrible coughing
n because we walked under the rain
i m headache and gt cold
yer
why i m always gt sick???

watched the first round
gt the result
thn we cant wait for the final round
so we left first
haha

had dinner at Gurney Plaza
buy gastric pills at Guardian
because i m out of stock
thn we bac

my face become terrible
a lot of acnes come to me
maybe is because i m not enough slp and the weather too hot
bt i ald decide
before my semester end
i must make my face beautiful like last time
and i m going to keep my hair longer
so tat i can look preetier whn i m birthday
hehe

my graduate will be my present for myself
so nice and valueble

recently
i always think of him
a person which i love before
bt now
is over ald
haha
he is going bac to PG to do his internship on May
wat kind of feeling whn i meet him?
i also dunno
hope it is nothing

like my friend said
i m too easy to trust ppl
so i m easy to cheated by others
i knew wat situation i hv now
i will think about it but i really need some times

after training
my mood is changeable
i become very emo now
sometimes i m extremely excited
but sometimes my mood will bevery down and juz sit quietly
until my frends asked me
"wat happend to u?"
like one of my lecturer told us
u all still are emotional not stable
i still easily affected by ppl n things

Monday, March 29, 2010

I hate management subject

I really dun like management subject
especially is marketing n convention
so boring until i wan to fall asleep


i juz wan slp
haiz

miss my darling

today is going to hard rock
i m not write in FB is because dun wan let all ppl know
i think today will go there early with my uniform
hehe

Early in the morning

early in the morning
woke up prepare to college
last nite gt rain
so today is so a nice day to slp

nose sensitive again
felt tired
and also geram
why every morning will gt one??

coughing last nite
until hard to slp
tonite i m going to HardRock
mum ald warn
cannot drink liquer or liquor
erm
but i din promise
because tat is depend on situation and my mood also
haha

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Choices

i m coughed whole nite
why ler
i also dunno
maybe i accidentally ate some food
erm
i still dunno

a lot of choices need to do
long hair? short hair?
study? work? study + work?

dun wan to think too much
because i also dunno wat i wan

Earth Hour

the last sat of Mac
is the Earth Hour

i switched off everything
sat outside my house
watched the stars and moon
thinking my future

i m still confusing about my future
still feeling lost in my world
a lot of things need to do
but i juz put aside

my report
i m going to start it tomorow
hope i can finished at least 5 pages
haiz
no mood to do anything

2 more weeks later is my monthly check-up again
i m going to request the doctor can i change it to yearly
because i m really lazy go there every month
and i m feeling better now

for me
an asthma patient
many foods cannot eat
especially is iced
and i cannot let my emotional change too fast
haha
hate to take care my body
so many yrs ald
whn can i recover fully
sure it is impossible lar

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Qingming Festival

today
woke up early in the morning
because today is my family Qingming Festival

every year sure i will attend the activity
to remember past ancestors

i observed the surrounding
so quite
because tat time is around 6.30am

prepared everything
Cleaning and sweeping of graves, Ancestor worship, offering food to deceased, burning joss paper
are the major activities we will did

nowadays
young generation will not attend the function
for me
it is a gud traditional event to keep on

Friday, March 26, 2010

Boring

today no class
slp until very late
if not my youngest sis woke me up
sure i still on the bed until 12pm
the reason she woke me up is
COOK RICE
=='

doing nothin whole day
no mood to do
especially is my report
arghh

3 more weeks
need to pass up my report
and 6 weeks later
is my midterm
i m still felt confusing with all subjects

received a call fr MR Ong (laundry mgr)
he juz wan to told me
Chris suggested HR to hire trainees after we graduate as permanent staff at the meeting 2 days ago
he said i can get the comfirmation letter from HR first

i talked with my mom
she din gv me useful suggestion
i think she knew i wan to continue my studies also
but i dun wan to let my parents so tired to pay my fee

really dunno how to decide
i must try my best at tis semester
and i will think my future after tis
maybe i will take Open Uni
really so may things need to consider

I really dun wan to grow up

p/s To all my classmates
Plz dun called me professor anymore
Tis is the past tense ald

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Finally 1 week class ended

Yuhooo
Tis week my class ended ald
so tired
because all are confusing subjects
so really tough
one more thing
did my lecturers still remember my chinese name?
did my juniors still remember my chinese name?
i m really wan to know

today one of our senior lecturer told us
" U all are leading the hospitality industry at the future,
we are going to gather u all and become the most strong group"
i knew
whn graduate
we are the first biggest batch
we really proud of it
because we are the last semester
all lecturers very concern our behavior, attitude and also academic
really felt very stress
going to scream it out
or hope someone will by my side

i m really is a stubborn person
i knew wat will happened to me if i drank coffee
bt i still drank it
early in the morning

sigh
so i suffer for whole day
dunno wat happend
i started coughing
maybe is affected by my frends
or maybe is because i drank iced herbal tea last nite
Hope it will not become serious

juz now bac EQ took my allowances
I miss the moment we worked together
the kind of feeling cannot replace by other

i think a lot last nite
i knew i changed ald
my behavior, my personality
guys always around me
i admit
i played with some of them
i knew tat i did the wrong thing
i dun care how other ppl think
i deserve to let other ppl mad on me
sometimes i wan to tell the truth
not because i m not honest
is because i dunno how to say
I only wan the most simple life
plz dun made my life so complicated

Stress Stress Stress
my life is started suffer now

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Stop emotional

i decide ald

I WILL STOP BE SO EMO ALL THE TIMES

i have to stop so emotional and be patient
I hate my feeling affected by other ppl
Tis is the last time i allow my tears dropped
no more tears will i drop after tis

today is marketing & convention class.
tis two class is so bored until i wan to fall asleep
i really hate management subjects
although i knew tat is so useful for me to become a manager
but ...

stomach not feeling well from early in the morning until now
dunno wat happen lar
juz very pain
urghh
I am really need to try my best in my study
And i think i need to have at least 1 cup of coffee per day
(although need to eat the gastric pill all the times >.< )
I also wan to buy a lot of tip bits ( My favourite)


I miss everyone in EQ
no matter u r hurt me before
or very sayang me before
u are in my list

I will going to Hard Rock next mon
hehe
^^

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Haiz

first day class
all blur blur

haiz
i really need to recall all the accounting 1 lar
make me confusing only

i like the timetable tis semester
but i hate all the subjects lar
all are management subjects
tough

i miss u all
keep in touch o

Monday, March 22, 2010

Ending of everything

My industrial training is ended ald
why so fast
i also dunno
>.<

i miss u all lar
really miss

tomorow i will start my last semester ald
need to do my best
because is my last chance to fight for my future

i never hide my wild ambition
and i nevery stop to plan for my future
but dunno why
plans always changed
geram only

whn i bac EQ today
met my colleagues
all bellmen, abg karim, darling, qing, mambir, chong, jon, hadi, sharifah, siti
and others
miss they so much

after settled everything
bac college
someone said i m become thinned
gt ar
they only 4 months did see me only
and they all surprise because i cut my hair so short
last time my hair is ald over my shoulder
bt now
it became very short

Take care
all of u
i knew u all wil miss me
same to me
u all will never be forgoten in my world

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Last day in HEP

today is my last day
feeling is so complicated
happy because finally i finished my training for 4 months
sad because i had to leave all my new frends

all treat me very well
never scolded me except the gurl
never say no to my requests
care about me

suddenly he asked me whether i angry him because of the previous message
thn i said no
no point for me to angry him
actually whn i saw him tis morning
i knew,
he liked me very well
bt because of some reason
he cant admit sometimes
he n i
very complicated
haha

i m rushed to work today
so skipped my breakfast
very hungry fr early morning
and i only had my favourite coffee with empty stomach

thought need wait until 12pm or 1pm only can hv my lunch

took pic with some colleagues
whn i told them i m leaving today
they all shocked and asked me
why so fast??
especially is the Blue Moon supervisor
although i m not so frend with him
bt he made commitment with me
he invite me bac EQ whn i m free
because everyone will miss me
and he promise
if i wan to hv a drink in Blue Moon
juz gv him a call
he will belanja
thx first
try my best
haha

i really miss u all lar
hope we can hv chance to work again at future
gud luck to u all

MY last noon shift in EQ

today is my last noon shift in EQ
haiz
took a lot of pic with all ppl

met some frends asked me
whn is my last day
one of the supervisor of HK said,
all the EQ staff will miss me after i leave
me too
i will not forget u all
u all so special
all of u

thz u so much

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Sleepy and boring

morning shist again
@@
sleepy
4 of us worked only

finally i can do check-out ald
haha
thx everyone which taught me

i miss Matthew
he is really sweet whn he smile
haha

met him twice today
i shocked
because only now i realised that he still manage to affect me
bt i think he dunno
he n i are 2 straight lines
which means never gt interaction anymore

i will miss all my frends in HEP
because of them
i never regret chose EQ as my industrial training
i m very enjoyed it
thzzxxxxxxxx everyone
miss u all

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Change offday

today i worked with din, sharifah and wan qing.
bt most of the time only wan qing n i at front desk.
the rest
...


i kept on received the calls fr gsts and settled their problems
bz lol
whn no cashier at front desk
chris came out n backup us
he was so gud
thz boss
chatted with him a lot
liked talked with him
because he very funny

had lunch around 12.30pm
supposed is 12pm
bt suddenly gst came requested changed room
leceh

requested my offday change to tomorow
because need bec hospital do monthly checkup
so fast har??
1 month ald pass

i only hv 3 days in front desk
felt very sad
because going to leave

Monday, March 15, 2010

Sleepy

Last sunday nite i m sick
after went out with whole family for dinner
my nose started made me suffer

until midnite
i still can't sleep
so i sms with someone who worked nite shift
i think he sure will felt i m always bring trouble
i felt he liked me
from the first time we met

after i asked him
he admitted
haha
i m shocked
actually

b4 tat,
gt a guy told me
i m very lucky
because everyone liked me
he said i m knew how to "ambil hati"
maybe

i m going to leave
will miss everyone
because everyone of u are special

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Damm tired and sleepy

today very bz
although we ald gt 4 ppl at front desk
still felt bz




i settled a lot of things tonite
made me exhausted
room move, laundry, receipts
many many things


these few days
many things happend at nite
until the duty manager need to go here go there
the bellman also knew i m very "fulled" tonite
n asked me take a deep breathe b4 i settled other matter


thz to all staff
i m always behave liked a child
thank u them for helping me
really appreciate
chef khor n chef yeoh also same
although i m not trained in kitchen
bt they always said i m juz like their daughter
they made me felt very warm
made me wan to manja with them also
i really did it
always manja one
to everyone
haha

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Suddenly

suddenly gt flu b4 i worked today
very tired
kept on sneezed

today really very tired
5 ppl worked only
because of my flu,
i hard to concentrate and my mind can't think very fast
i rubbed my nose until it looked very red
n my face looked lik very sad whn i m sick
many ppl asked me tonite why i m looked so sad?
haha

chong, vignes, din, hadi n i worked
i check-in a lot of guests tonite
haiz
lazy to work
felt stressed whn din stand beside me
tonite is the first day i worked with him
bt dunno why
he lik stood beside me whn i m ckecked-in the gsts and update all the info
i felt nt confortable lar
bt he is caring about me
i will laugh in front of him everytime i saw him
i also dunno why

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Finally i did it

tis matter at my heart ald few yrs
finally i did it

dunno why
juz suddenly went to did it
it really is a secret
hehe

the feeling is gud
very confortable

miss u
my dear.

Monday, March 1, 2010

19days more

i still gt 3 weeks more
actually is not enough 3 weeks also
i miss him
i really miss him

recently penang gt air pollution
caused me very suffer
asthma is getting worst
and sore throat, terrible coughing

tis weekend need accompany my mom attend a dinner
lazy
and her frends will ask a lot of things
hard to handle

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Sorry... Do u still remember, my dear?

Whn u first time hold my hand,
did u still remember wat did u told me?

Whn u first time said sry to me,
did u still remember is whn?

Whn we are started our relationship,
did u still remember is which date?

Whn we are first time sat at the corner,
did u still remember wat drink we had tat time?

Whn u sms with me,
did u still remember wat did i called u?

Whn we gt argue,
did u still remember why?

U really treat me very well.
i m appologise because of everything i did.
i knew u ald dun wan to relate with me,
so i will not go to ur place ald.
u gt my words.
thx for everything before.
Hope all the best.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

thx everyone

Thz to everyone who helped me for my birthday cake
especially is Mr Chris,
sorry for disturb u after u bac room
n i m very appreciate it
for ur kindness

i had to thz to everyone include Che Wan, bellman(help me sent the bill to boss), pastry staff(helped me decorated my cake)
the pastry staff really worked hard on my cake after they knew i m the one ordered.

thx to myself,
because i knew so many ppl from EQ
really thank u

boss,
love u always
:)

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

busy check-in day

i thought today will be very bz at the day time
bt i m wrong

i m extremely free at the daytime n also nighttime.

whn i think i can bac on time,
the gsts came
most of them are japanese.
i did the checked in with sahar, din and jasslyn
very bz
they came 11pm sharp
tat is my time to bac home

we gt the password for PMS n card maker
but the PMS ONe, we can't checked-in the gsts
so i had to borrow the senior staff password.

abg kash also started ply with me
today he suddenly called me darling,
i dunno wat response should i gv him
haha

tired bt happy because i can finished the check-in process alone n successfully

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Stop do tat

plz stop push me to the guy which i dun lik
why u muz mention he n i whn we met everytime?
m n i r only frend
no more thn tat

i knew now all the staff there ald said he n i gt something
but tat are not the truth
i tot u will be understand
bt u not

i really dun lik u always relate me with him
plz stop do tat
i m very very appreciate it
thz
my dear

2nd day at FO

today is my 2nd day at FO
at the beginning not so bz
i can handle the check-in gsts
because they ald taught me b4
thz guys

thn start bz after dinner
updated the gst profiles, checked-in gsts, ans the phone
tonite gt a VVIP came
need prepared everything for them

suddenly gt gst fr tnb came n requested to see the function room
so bz to find someone to gt him down n open the door for him
abg kash fr bellservice took the key to open the door for the gsts
but he din hv the glassdoor's keys
so he went to the security dep

the gst came to us n said no ppl open the door for him
so, i brought him down again
the door is closed,
i went to c/g called abg nik(Dm)
after tat abg kash opened the door

accompanied the gsts with abg kash
because the need some paper n pen,
i borrowed fr the nearest place
thn stand outside the merbah room to wait the gsts made ammenment
waited there around 45 mins,
luckily abg kash there n sembang with me

thn went to see him
n went home


so sleepy nw
wan go to oi oi ald

Saturday, February 20, 2010

damm hot

the weather is so hot
morning shift today
so sleepy
john taught me checked in yesterday
today i can checked in the guest ald
but still will felt panic
>.<

went to ECF again after lunch
because need to relief shift
until 3pm
learn PMS by using training mode
better thn b4

jasslyn kept on asked me about my ex at lunch time
i only escaped fr her questions
dunno how to answer her lar
tis thing only he n i knew
sure i will not break my promise

i think i m crazy ald
gastric but still drank coffee
why i will did it?
i also dunno
i only knew tat
i really addicted to coffee
which i know my stomach very sensitive n cant take too much

Friday, February 19, 2010

Lazy day again

at ECF today
knew how they operated there
doing nothing

vind n fahmi kept on called me with nonsense words at canteen today
ashamed lar
haiz
tis 2 ar
lik kids

met chef khor, chef yeoh n chef boon
they all treat me very nice b4
until now,
chef khor n chef yeoh still remember me
liked them
chef khor said he intentionally went to ECF to see me
hehe
i knew he juz joke lar
fun
he nv shout to me or say something heavy whn i m made mistake last time
they really very sayang me lol

addicted to coffee again
finally i knew why i will choose him
the coffee smell
now only i knew
the coffee smell is really nice
haha

Thursday, February 18, 2010

first time

now only i realised
i had so many first time in EQ

first time working at hotel
first time wore kimono
first time hv so many malay frends
first time gt a bf fr hotel ( although ald is a past)
first time ate dorayaki ( became my favourite at the end)
first time showed my sweetness smile to all ppl
first time gt appraisal fr DAto
first time gt scalded fr guests
first time felt so embrassed
first time gt so many admirers at the same time

haha
too many first time here


last few weeks,
abg junid fr HK suddenly told me i gt admirer there
but i still dunno who is the guy
although i kept on asked him,
but he told me today: we all like u, including me.


fainted....


except him,
no other guy i will call them " dear"
tat is only for him

now trying to let everything become normal
including all my relationship with other ppl
planning for my future
headache

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Enjoyed my day

went to grandparent's house at butterworth ( my mother's side)
i liked there
because there hv many kids can played together
loved them so much
because they all so cute

gambled again
it is the game we muz played on CNY
but i m juz won little bit only
haha

felt very relax there
because no pressure
let me forgot everything
juz wan to enjoy and appreciate the times with my elders n also my cousins

tis is the most shortest CNY holiday i had
only 3 days
but i m very enjoyed all the days
at least
i still can together with my family

sleepy
お休み

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Playing u around????????

chat with u at fb juz now
told u everything
but ur conclusion is i played u around.

did i m tis type of gurl in ur mind n also ur heart
if u really think i m such person,
go ahead.


never gt ppl said me played them around.
i treated everyone sincerely
only u will said lik tat
n u also is the first guy said tat to me.

Monday, February 15, 2010

1st day of CNY

first day
very boring
my daughter came to my house early in the morning
she called me whn i m still on the bed
haha

thn went to relative's houses with mom
long time no see
but very boring
because i m only sat beside n let the elders chit chat

after home,
watched tv
played computer games
sleeping
very very tired today
because yesterday woke up at 6am
but sleept at 12am
around 18 hrs my eyes are opended

Sunday, February 14, 2010

JUZ FOR U

juz wan to hear ur voice
juz wan to listen u say happy new yr
juz wan to see the message u sent me
juz wan
juz wan







nothing
nothing
juz because i m too miss u

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Stupid Guest

today very angry
scolded by a fussy guest

she came to reception to claim her f&b voucher
but we can't found tat
she started shout at us
really no manners
after made some calls
she decided went to the restaurant first
we continued to find the voucher

finally
gt it
at the back office
shit lar
the s&m ppl put there without tell us
thn i brought the voucher n a confirmation letter to the guest for her signature

whn i reached there,
i told the mgr first
he asked me everything
thn i saw the guest
so i showed her the voucher n asked for signature

after she signed
she started shouted at me
in front of so many guests n restaurant staffs
espeacially the staff are all my frends
really felt embrassed
he saw the scene
but he din say anything to me
very sad
i din do anything wrong
but i m the one who gt scolded

after i bac the reception
i told them everything happended to me at the restaurant
really mad lar
why she so fussy
fxxk lar she

but the things made me sad is him
he saw it but din say anything

for those who read my blog,
pls dun make any guessing
i will not admit anything

Last day in reservation

last day
so fast
learnt something new there

today i m quite weired
gastric but go to eat laksa
coughing but ate a lot of mandarin orange
haha
i also dun understand why am i did it

lazy to write all
because memory ald in my heart n my mind
words are not enough to describe all

sorry to bring the problem to u,

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Story About he n i

first time saw him
thought he was very fierce, not frendly
but after that
he helped me a lot
dunno why
he can always confort me
quite weired

thn really nothing
until tat day
suddenly we started
very sweet tat time
he can make me laugh always
i always gv him my sweet sweet smile
sms, chatting, facebook
whn i m sad
he will very concerned me
n immediately read my blog
haha
missed tat time

whn i m wilful,
i liked to ask him some stupid ques
made our relationship broken
i m always made him impatient,
angry
why??
i always asked myself
really all is my fault
dun forcing
because forcing cant bring happinese

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Reservation

very boring
like a fool
doing nothing there
sien sien sien

CNY coming soon
but suddenly i m sick
flu, cough n sore troat
gonna lost my patient
geram nia
yerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

prepare my report
need some information
haiz
lazy to find the supervisor lar

The Last post for my dear

Tis is the last one i write
i mean our relationship
i m not sure whether u will read or not
but i hope u read
at least u know wat happend

at the first time u called me switty,
i m attracted by ur smile
u let me felt very warm
lik the feeling
when we start
i knew u very enjoy n happy
until we always gt argues,
we both start change
we dun believe each other
at least dun lik the time we start
u said i m liar
but i really no hide anything fr u

dunno why
although my frend said u r a very bad guy,
but i chose to believe u
i knew maybe i m wrong
but i chose to believe u
juz because the feeling tat i gt fr u
quite weired
haha
anyway
hope u happy always
dun worry
but be happy
tis is wat u always told me before
May God bless u n ur family
see u,
my dear

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Front Office

Today i m at operator
i requested myself fr abang shahar
he is a very nice duty manager
but also is MCC person

not gt my rooster yet
but i will not apply for more holidays
i only claim my PH

yeah
can ans the call n transfer the calls for guests
happy
n the feeling is fantastic
thz to the operators there
willing to gv me the chance to learn

He kept on said i lied to him
i swear i dun hv
i m very honest to him
but he still dun believe me



my nose is so sensitive with the dust n tempearature today
kept on sneezed
n also itchy
haha
dunno tomorow still will be lik tat or not
trying to avoid ice n other things
but i really cannot stopped eat the mandarin orange
although i knew it will make me cough,
i still wan eat
haha
i m too wilful

My Favourite songs

Tis are my favourite songs
Love it so much


First Love
sa i go no ki su ha(最后的吻)
ta ba ko no flavor ga si ta(带着淡淡的香烟味道)
ni ga ku te se tsu na i ka o ri(苦涩而令人心碎的香味)
a si te no i ma go ro ni ha(明天的这个时候)
a na te ha do ko ni i ru n da ro u(你会在哪里呢)
da re o o mo tsu te ru n da ro u(又会想着谁呢)
you are always gonna be my love
i tsu ka da re ka to ma ta ko i ni o chi te mo(就算在以后的生命中和谁恋爱也好)
i'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
i ma ha ma da ka na si i love song(现在仍唱着悲伤的情歌)
a ta ra si i u ta u ta e ru ma de(直至新的歌曲再次推出)
ta chi do ma ru ji ka n ga(一度呆滞的时间)
u go ki da ma da so u to si te ru(将会继续运转)
wa su re ku na i ko to ge ka ri(剩下的尽是难以忘怀的事情)
a si te no i ma go ro ni te ru(明天的这个时间)
wa ta si ha ki tsu to na i te ru(我一定会哭着)
a na ta o o mo tsu te ru n da ro u(想起深爱过的你)
you will always be inside my heart
i tsu mo a na ta da ke no ba si yo ga a ru ka ra(在我心中永远给你留下一片空间)
i hope that i have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
i ma ha ra si i wu ta u ta e ru ma



If i let u go
Day after day
Time pass away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows
I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find
The courage to show
To letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me (Oh yeah)
How will I know
If I let you go
Night after night
I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you (No one like you)
You speak to my heart (Speak to my heart)
Its such a shame we're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask
I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me (Oh yeah)
How will I know
If I let you go
if I let you go
Ooh baby
On

Sunday, February 7, 2010

I really really hate myself

I really really hate myself
always pretend
pretend i m happy
pretend i m strong

actually i m not happy at all
whn he sent the message said wan to end our relationship
i really wan to cry
but tat time i m work as linen maid
i can't
i really wan to show my frailty in front of u
really
n i m not lie to u
at least i really honest everything to u
but u still not believe

the tears still will drop
because i m afraid


hope my blog will not gv u any pressure
n i dun wan u think tat i m playing the trick

Miss u

today did the body checkup
luckily the report is normal
but the doctor still exhort a lot
try to advoid drink ice, coffee and tea
my favourite ice-cream also cannot eat too much
yer
i wan eat lar
CNY coming soon
i wan eat
i wan eat

to MR xxxxx
i knew u will not read my blog
so i can write the truth here
i really do nothing with m
the message is not wat u think
u misunderstand me
n i also dun wan to explain
u r the first guy called me swity
u r the first guy knew my virtues
thx for everything
although i ald deleted all ur messages
but they all in my heart
miss u
u gv me a very sweet sweet memory

Saturday, February 6, 2010

DUNNO!!! DUNNO!!! DUNNO

i really dunno wat m i doing now
tired and exhausted
finally


HOUSKEPING LIFE ENDED


Going to FO next week
for 1 month++

tommorow is a busy day
morning go to clinic do routine bodycheck
really dun wan go
sure will gt scold fr DR CHAN
thn clean my room and also my house

CNY coming soon
dunno how many holidays will i gt tis yr
hope can let me play for few days

i miss him
i really miss him

Friday, February 5, 2010

Happy Day + explain

Today quite happy
A lazy day
felt slppy
Got my new modem
wifi + router
fast speed
hehe

To all my frends,
I m ald broke up with my secret bf
plz dun come n asked me about the reason
i knew u all concern me or juz wan to watch the "show"
all is my fault
because i still not believe him as he belive me
and plz stop blamed him
he is really a nice guy
n i never regret with him b4

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Friends

朋友分成很多种
从最普通到最特别的
永远不会缺少。

好朋友的定义因人而异。
如果从头到尾只是普通朋友,
那永远不会变成谈心的朋友。
永远不能融入她们那一群。

不管在怎样努力,
那都会是无济于事。
算了吧,
不应再执著。
但是你们永远都是我的好朋友。

不用标明,
应该自己清楚吧。

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Advise

early in the morning,
received a message fr her
surprise me

her message quite meaningful
about yesterday thing
i knew she saw something
i also knew Mr M is only played with me
he treated everyone same
i knew
i really knew
he is not sincere at all
i ald tried my best no involved myself with them
haiz

about the chocolate tat i wrote in fb
actually is saja nia
no other meaning

p/s
whatever guys said something very sweet,
they all are cheat
playing might hv fun
but also will bring a lot of troubles
but
why guys always said:
tis in our story,
please dun involved other woman.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

放不开

事隔差不多两年了吧。
心里还是有他的存在。
走在大街上,
目光会很自然的搜索他的背影。
驾车时,
会自然的寻找他的车。
尽管知道他已经不在这里了。
但还是会不自觉地这样做。
我不知道我还爱你吗?
还是一切都是习惯?

前几天跑去剪了头发,
到现在我还不知道为什么要见到那么短,
很多人看了都吓倒。
以为我受了什么刺激,
哈哈
没有啦。
只是心血来潮而已,
新的发型,
希望我会有新的开始。

好像越来越任性了。
因为酒店的人都很疼我,
很少被骂。
还整天有得吃 。
做错事还有人替我辩解。
好好噢。
我整天在想,
为什么大家都喜欢我?
是因为我太单纯直接吗?
还是因为我太随便,亲切呢?
不知道?

Friday, January 1, 2010

Golden Phoenix

After Kampachi,
i had my training at there.
Same,
i also learnt different things there.
I lik there so much.
Now only i realised tat
different outlets but still will face the same problems.

Kampachi

I had my training in Kampachi for 2 weeks.
There very fun and i had learnt a lot of things at there.
The supervisor, Azrain very nice.
He and all the staffs there assisted me when i was training at there.
Thanks to John and Megat (my assistant supervisors)
also had to thank to Kamal (Captain), he taught me a lot there.
Last, thanks to Jess, Ina and Shikin
If without u three, i really dunno how to wear kimono.
I admited i m really very stupid,
learnt how to wear the kimono for so long time,
but i still not so successful.
Paiseh
Thanks to the casual workers for helping me when the busy times.
Even one of the casual worker ate my dorayaki.

Love u all so much
Muacks